Emotional wreck!!!

Hello!!

Well, I'm using the 20 minutes I have for lunch to update this thing :)... but don't feel bad for me! I had lunch duty and that can make anyone nauseous and not hungry. Today was orange Monday...nachos, tomato soup w/ grilled cheese, fried fish, oranges and carrots....oh lets not forget the orange juice!! I'm not too sure how this is classified as a healthy lunch by the state of Texas, but its definitely classified as a DISGUSTING lunch in my book!!!

So, I don't know if it was because I saw 2 lovey- dovey movies Saturday night with Courtney and Marissa, or if its because I'm going to be 27 in 4 days, but I was an absolute emotional mess yesterday. And no, I am not pregnant or about to start....lets just get that out of the way :). And it wasn't even necessarily a sad emotional mess either, just a mess.

It started with me getting out my laptop and turning it on (which I haven't done in about a year). Lets just say there are a lot of pictures that brought back some memories that sent me crying. I think we all know who was in the pictures. But I was actually able to smile at the experiences, but it still made me sad!!. Which then in return made me realize that the past 3 birthdays I have been single. We all know I am a completely independent person, that doesn't need a man to make me whole, but I would love to feel that feeling. (I blame this on the movies. :)). And then I watched My Sister's Keeper...I read the book, but I did still cry in the movie. It was a great therapeutic cry though. And then the post from Andrea about needing a mammogram because the chances of her getting breast cancer were outrageous!! Cancer makes my heart hurt! So needless to say, I pretty much cried all day!! :)

With this said, I am also so filled with love for the people that I have in my life (Which makes me emotional!) In the mix of Jonathan pictures, there so so many fun time pictures. Anne and Andrea's wedding, amazing nights a Pete's, birthdays, graduations and many more!! I am so blessed. I could not imagine a better group of friends or family. I know we all feel this way and know exactly what I'm talking about. It's such an amazing feeling that no matter what time of day that there are many people I can call upon to help or just chat.

I am REALLY trying to be more of a positive, "glass half full" kind of a girl and I think yesterday was me crossing that line :). Life is not about rather or not my class sits still during a lesson, or if they walk down the hallway in a line, it's about love, relationships and friendships!! I am really going to try and focus more on this next year, instead of getting so wrapped up in the nonsense of it all!! I LOVE teaching, I feel I should say that....it's just the group of kids I work with have so many more issues that keep them uninterested in reading and writing and that's tough sometimes!!

And I must add, that Jaxon Miles is the cutest thing ever!!!!! :)

I would like to write more, but I need to work!! :( BOOOOO