It's a smile, it's a kiss, it's a sip of wine, it's summertime :)

Hello Friends!!!!!!!!!

It's been a while, I know! Summer vacation is coming to a close and I'm sad.....as expected. This has been a ridiculously great summer. Got to hang out with a lot of amazing friends, found an amazing guy...and by found, I mean I gave him a chance :) and consumed a lot of beverages :).

I am trying to make it my personal goal to have a great, fun, exciting year. Last year was a beating to say the least!! I had no fun, was miserable and just an all around grump. I have come to terms with the fact I will not be getting a new job, which was hard. All through school everyone talked about how there were so many jobs and there was a massive teacher shortage...well the massive teacher shortages are only in like Oak Cliff because everyone is scared to work there. Anyways, I got into teaching to have fun and make a difference and that is what I am determined to do. I am going to continue to ignore my sociopath of a boss who tries to make everyone her victim by beating them down and just do what I am supposed to do. I can not allow her to affect my life anymore because then she wins!!! She is miserable and crazy and there is nothing I can do about it so I am moving on...though I do enjoy that she doesn't know I put read recipes on all the emails I send her so I know when she reads them......which she then ignores and never responds too lol!!! :)

I don't feel I need to recap my summer because you were all there :).....concerts, bdays, weekend trips, so I am just going to write down my bucket list!! Enjoy!!!

Here we go....
1. Go to an Ellen and
2. Oprah taping...preferably when they give away great stuff :)
3. I want to spend the night in every state
4. I want to stay in a little private hut in Tahiti and/or Fiji
5. Go on a month long trip around Europe...not backpacking of course :)
6. Learn and be fluent in Spanish
7. Have a lake house and/or a beach house
8. Have house with a huge porch and a porch swing
9. Go to Times Square for New Years Eve
10. Learn to surf
11. Get married on a beach
12. Go up in a hot air balloon
13. Lay on the beach of every ocean
14. Visit every continent...maybe not Antarctica ;)
15. Sky dive
16. Be on Amazing Race
17. and Big Brother
18. Learn to bake and then.....
19. Do a Food Network Challenge.....
20. Or a Cupcake War
21. Go shopping in New York or on Rodeo Drive...and be able to afford stuff :)
22. Learn to scuba dive
23. Send my parents on an amazing, all expense paid vacation...they deserve it
24. Hang out in the Hampton's for a weekend :)
25. Open a daycare...I will not hire Jeannie ;)

Love you all!!!!! Thank you for being in my life :)

heartbreak and happiness

Hello,

It's been a while that's for sure, but now I have internet at home so I'm up a running!!!

Well, to say it's been a bad couple of weeks would be a total understatement. Nothing has happened to me personally, but it seems like everything that can go wrong to the people around me has. There has been death, illness, cancer, loss of jobs, and pure sadness. It breaks my heart and I have prayed harder in the past 3-4 weeks than I have in the rest of my life combined. I just pray for strength, courage, love and forgiveness for those affected by hard times. And know that what is meant to be will and there is a reason for everything even when we have NO idea what that may be.

So instead of making this a sapping, sad blog, I decided to take heartache and worry and turn it into something positive.....

50 things that make me smile and happy

1. And this is number 1 on the list and in my life....family!!!!!!!
2. My moms motherly instinct when something is wrong with me
3. Laughing till it hurts....or I snort :)
4. My AMAZING friends....
5. Watching my friends with their husbands and families :)
6. Ice cold beer
7. The amazing man that my brother is becoming
8. Water....pool, beach or lake
9. A good ole' Texas summer...heat and all
10. Country concerts
11. Pedicures
12. My insane, ADHD dog
13. Knowing that even though he has a hard time showing it, my dad loves me with every ounce of his body
14. Knowing I make my parents proud
15. I bought my own house....and it's stinkin cute!!!!!
16. Looking back at old pictures
17. Hugs
18. A really good cheesburger :)
19. Country boys and their trucks
20. Reality TV
21. The unconditional love that everyone in my life gives me
22. The smell of Thanksgiving
23. Clean laundry
24. Birthdays....mine and my friends
25. The smell of babies....especially my friends babies :)
26. Good night out where you dont know whats going to happen by 2
27. All things Texas!!!
28. Football games
29. Payday!!!!! :)
30. Naps
31. Summer night BBQ's
32. Seeing people I love happy
33. Teaching....it may not seem like it but I do like it :)
34. Clean sheets
35. People watching
36. Airports
37. VACATIONS :)
38. Love
39. Homemade ice cream
40. Fresh cut grass
41. Flowers
42. Starbucks
43. My beach room
44. Christmas lights
45. Dr. Pepper
46. Summer dresses and flip flops
47. Still feeling like a kid at Christmas
48. Giving gifts that make people light up
49. Feeling proud of the woman I have become
50. Last but NOT least....God and faith....knowing that in the end, things will work out the way they are meant too!! I felt I needed to end with this to wrap up this blog!!! :)

Thank you for being in my life and showing me love. I hope I do the same for you!!!
If there is one thing I have learned lately is you cant take anything for granted or expect it to be there or the same the next day. You have to live each moment like it will be your last and have no regrets.

TRULY blessed!!!!

Hello peeps,

Well......I didn't think I was was going to make it but I did....it's the last week of school :). Biggest waste of time ever!!! LOTS of coloring, word searches, and videos! I was informed by my lovely boss last week that I will be staying in 1st, so my fingers are crossed extra hard for a new job!! I just don't think I can survive another year like this one!! Keep your fingers crossed too :)

It's been a whirlwind of a 2 weeks. I feel like every spare second of the day has been filled. School is filled with non-stop meetings and testing. It's been a little bit of a disappointment because of how low my class is :(. I know its not me because I have worked my ass off, but I am sending 9(!!!!) below level readers to 2nd grade. They are going to kill me!!!!!! I did what I could and I have to be ok with that I guess. We go on a letter scale, "A" obviously being the lowest and they need to reach a "J" by the end of first. I have brought kids up from "B" to "H"'s but it's still not high enough. I fear for these kids....and I'm being serious!! Some of them are going to have it rough I'm afraid :(

Anyways, but on to a MUCH happier note....

I had the BEST birthday EVER last Friday!! It was so awesome. Nothing reminds you of how much you are loved than a birthday!!!! It was jammed packed too. I left school Friday as soon as my kids were gone so I could go home, change , and let Lexi out. I got back to my friends townhouse right own the street from the taste of Addison at 4:30....and did not stop till my head hit the pillow at 1ish. It probably would have been way earlier if my good friend Andrea wouldn't have been stuffing food in my face :). Chris Cagel put on a great concert and I had a great time. Saturday we got up, (tried to not throw up) and then went a had a great lunch with my friends and boyfriend Jaxon!! They are a good time and I love hanging out and laughing my butt off!! They I went to a cute wedding followed by another.....way more sober trip to the taste of Addison. Great night! 27 has definitely already been a FANTASTIC year and we're only 1 week in!!

This weekend was nothing but food, beer and friends. Saturday I went to Longview for Andrea's birthday. We went out to Lake Cherokee and enjoyed the sun and beverages. Sunday and Monday were spent at a bbq....I believe the statement "I am beered out" actually came out of my mouth lol!!! Good, Good times!!!

I can't wait for school to be out and enjoy the summer.....SO pumped for the summer concerts, pool times and seeing where life takes me :)

Internet is not working on my phone right now so the pictures will have to come at another time :)

God is great, beer is good and people are CRAZY....and inconsiderate :)

I thought I would have more than enough time to to update my blog this morning but inconsiderate parents and children who didnt bring a lunch for our field trip put a stop to that!!!

Sad day!!! Maybe later......

Wish me luck folks at the aquarium!!!

Emotional wreck!!!

Hello!!

Well, I'm using the 20 minutes I have for lunch to update this thing :)... but don't feel bad for me! I had lunch duty and that can make anyone nauseous and not hungry. Today was orange Monday...nachos, tomato soup w/ grilled cheese, fried fish, oranges and carrots....oh lets not forget the orange juice!! I'm not too sure how this is classified as a healthy lunch by the state of Texas, but its definitely classified as a DISGUSTING lunch in my book!!!

So, I don't know if it was because I saw 2 lovey- dovey movies Saturday night with Courtney and Marissa, or if its because I'm going to be 27 in 4 days, but I was an absolute emotional mess yesterday. And no, I am not pregnant or about to start....lets just get that out of the way :). And it wasn't even necessarily a sad emotional mess either, just a mess.

It started with me getting out my laptop and turning it on (which I haven't done in about a year). Lets just say there are a lot of pictures that brought back some memories that sent me crying. I think we all know who was in the pictures. But I was actually able to smile at the experiences, but it still made me sad!!. Which then in return made me realize that the past 3 birthdays I have been single. We all know I am a completely independent person, that doesn't need a man to make me whole, but I would love to feel that feeling. (I blame this on the movies. :)). And then I watched My Sister's Keeper...I read the book, but I did still cry in the movie. It was a great therapeutic cry though. And then the post from Andrea about needing a mammogram because the chances of her getting breast cancer were outrageous!! Cancer makes my heart hurt! So needless to say, I pretty much cried all day!! :)

With this said, I am also so filled with love for the people that I have in my life (Which makes me emotional!) In the mix of Jonathan pictures, there so so many fun time pictures. Anne and Andrea's wedding, amazing nights a Pete's, birthdays, graduations and many more!! I am so blessed. I could not imagine a better group of friends or family. I know we all feel this way and know exactly what I'm talking about. It's such an amazing feeling that no matter what time of day that there are many people I can call upon to help or just chat.

I am REALLY trying to be more of a positive, "glass half full" kind of a girl and I think yesterday was me crossing that line :). Life is not about rather or not my class sits still during a lesson, or if they walk down the hallway in a line, it's about love, relationships and friendships!! I am really going to try and focus more on this next year, instead of getting so wrapped up in the nonsense of it all!! I LOVE teaching, I feel I should say that....it's just the group of kids I work with have so many more issues that keep them uninterested in reading and writing and that's tough sometimes!!

And I must add, that Jaxon Miles is the cutest thing ever!!!!! :)

I would like to write more, but I need to work!! :( BOOOOO

So, I called Jeannie!!!

She can take her fake hair and shove it....ok, maybe it wasnt that bad. But just so you know, her school has 220 kids, a certified kindergarten and 7 certified teachers working there. Woman, I ran that building for you!!! I even ran it when I didn't work there...and the alarm company still calls me!!! Don't tell me how great that place is! She'll keep me in mind if something comes up because she has a wonderful full staff!!! Kiss my ass crazy lady.

Oh the best part, she told me to call Stephanie HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I'm overreacting, yes I know!! I'm just pissed off I can't find a job.... It really doesnt have anything to do with her.

I still have no idea what I'm doing on this blog thing...I dont even know if I'm doing it right!!

I need a beer!!! :)

HELLO ladies and ....well just ladies :)

I AM HERE!!!! Nothing much to say right now, just wanted to set it up. I will be back though because I have lots to say :)

18 School days left friends!!!! Then I can regain my sanity and loose the 12lbs I have gained from being a stress eater!!!

I REALLY wanted a summer job but those seem to be hard to come by this year :(. I have even thoughtof calling Jeannie....yes, you read that right!!! I am pretty desperate!!

Alright, need to go pick the kiddos up from library :)